Please...

 Assalamualaikum!!!

The day I stopped pleasing others,

was the day I knew I was free of people's expectations...

The day I started pleasing myself,

was the day I knew that I am worthy of everything good...

The day I started trying please God,

was the day I knew that I was repairing my link with Allah...

Ramadhan

Bahagianya langit dan bumi

Saat tiba bulan yang suci

Berkah berlimpah rahmat rezeki

Ampunan pun diberi

Beruntung bagi yang berjumpa

Dan selalu sujud pada-Nya

Tadarus tarawih berpuasa

Mengharapkan redha-Nya

Saat malam yang penuh janji

Malam seribu bulan

Kau turunkan malaikat ke bumi

Berkah Ramadhan yang suci

RAMADHAN

Resepi Ikan Stim Nyonya

Bahan-bahan :-

1 ekor ikan merah sederhana

2 cm halia *
3 ulas bawang putih *
* tumbuk dan lumur pada ikan

5-6 biji cili merah **
3-4 biji cili padi **
1 cm kunyit hidup **
2 batang serai **
3 ulas bawang merah **
2 biji bawang putih **
Secubit belacan **
** kisar

Air asam jawa
1 sb sos tiram
5 biji bendi
1 batang bunga kantan
1 biji tomato
Garam
Gula
Minyak masak


Cara memasak :-

1. Panaskan minyak dan tumis bahan kisar hingga naik bau
2. Tambah air asam jawa dan sos tiram
3. Masukkan bendi, bunga kantan dan tomato
4. Perasakan dengan garam dan gula
5. Tutup api
6. Tuangkan bahan yang ditumis keatas ikan
7. Kukus ikan sehingga masak (lebih kurang 15minit - bergantung pada size ikan)
8. Sedia dihidang

13 Reason Why ??? maybe less, maybe more (Part 3)

Assalamualaikum...


hurrmmm...

Get a snack, settle in... because i'm about to tell you the story of my life... yup! more specifically, why my life......... (fill in the blank) - maybe you're one of the reason why!

You told that it was just a small matter... other people have bigger problems but still can cope it... you said all people have their issues in life - it's difficult to cope with our own issues!

Have you imagine that you were the only hope for a particular damaged person that me want to find... I always think your advice can motivate and change my harmful thoughts... but, instead of getting advises, you blame me...

Everyone made me feel worse... words can crush souls real hard... without people noticing because they don't feel it...

There must be a reason that happened and pushed to the edge... Why it so hard for you to sit down and understand the pain without comparing and judging...


"the important thing - be there (with) to understand, because you are trusted!"


Some people blessed to have a strong support system (family, friends, etc)... but some not so lucky... we all have our own paths... it's not wrong to feel biases because it will always be there, but we can try to understand it first...

You can give your opinion or an advice, but always remember... REMEMBER... be careful with what you say... you can say something hurtful in just few seconds and feel like nothing and you a great, but the wounds can still be there years later to me - don't be so proud!

You said it's okay to be our self and tell the truth, but then you judge me... 

You said avoid or get rid of toxic people in my life... but for me, why do I need to avoid or get rid of toxic people, because me myself may be a toxic people to others... to me, just treat people nicely... who knows one day, someone ask for apologize and the forgiveness that give may cost my life in heaven...

to be continue...

13 Reason Why ??? maybe less, maybe more (Part 2)

Assalamualaikum...


... hurrmmm

Get a snack, settle in... because i'm about to tell you the story of my life... yup! more specifically, why my life......... (fill in the blank) - maybe you're one of the reason why!

I made the biggest mistake of my life... and i'm trying to keep it from ruining my life...

It seemed like no matter what I did, I kept letting people down...

I started thinking how everyone's lives would be better without me - stuck in mind!

... ... ...

I have things I keep hidden... sometimes, keeping secrets is only way how I can survive... but you keep push to know... you want to know what you want to know then you go... without you know i'm struggle with it...


"We don't always get second chances to help people... 'to be there'... in the right way... to love them"- but we choose to silent!


Maybe it was too painful for me to talk about it... - yes, i'm a sensitive person and not strong enough!

Maybe I kept it all in to protect others... even it hurt me a lot... it really hurts, but it's ok... i'm used to it as always...

Nobody knows the pain that I going through... how I struggling to hide it... so that I can look strong... just to make sure you don't think i'm weak...

... ... ...

Not everyone who comes to you in pain can tell you where it hurts at that time... maybe it take times to start talk about it but please "be there", act like always till the time come - coz, i also don't know which part of it!

I know I have friends, but I feel like I have no one to talk to about the sh** that goes in my head... because sometimes a friendship can't take the truth... - you start judging and avoiding!

You just want to know the story that make me like this, then you start to make a conclusion and blame me without knowing the whole story...

to be continue...

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Kerna ku tahu akan ku jumpa diriMu

Dan ku kan terus menempuh mimpi-mimpiku selalu...

Ku lihat semua gembira

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Cinta jangan sembunyi

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13 Reason Why ??? maybe less, maybe more (Part 1)

Assalamualaikum...


Hurrmmm...

Get a snack, settle in... because i'm about to tell you the story of my life... yup! more specifically, why my life......... (fill in the blank) - maybe you're one of the reason why!

I'm not angry you betrayed me... i'm angry that i trusted you in the first place... angry with myself... - pardon me, but you really hurt my feeling!

"what if the only way not to feel bad is to stop feeling anything at all, forever?"

It all started because I was feeling lost, i needed direction... any direction... and I couldn't escape my past... 

I needed a change... I needed to be someone new... I wasn't going to be invisible anymore... I was going to start brand new...

I was going to cut away the past and leave it all behind... I was going to work harder, be smarter and be stronger... because I can't change other people around me, but I can change myself... - yes, I can!

You think I'm the type that would rat anyone out about anything? - hurrmmm

I don't know what kind of person anyone is anymore...

I didn't know how empty it would feel.. there's is big part of the world that's just... just gone... and everyone else just keeps moving forward...

The worst part is, there's nothing I can do... - I'm useless!

to be continue...